My teeny, tiny baby is ONE today!

Ok, she isn't teeny tiny--but she is to me (and will probably always be).  Last year, the 22nd I had the flu--which was awful.  Then the 23rd, I woke up having contractions, but decided to wait until my Dr. appointment at like 10:30 or something.  By that time I was miserable.  They kept poking my belly and making me want to punch someone.  Luckily I hadn't eaten since the 21st,  (because of the flu) so they scheduled my C-section for later that day.  I went home, got ready in a hurry and we made it back to the hospital w/in the hour. By the time they were ready to wheel me into the OR, I was already dilated to a 7!!!  Anyway, about an hour after that Camryn Paige was born!


She was 7lbs 7oz and perfect. I had no idea what I missed when the trio were born, until I saw her for the first time--heard her cry for the first time.  It was magical and just thinking about it again gives me butterflies in my stomach.  It was the best feeling in the whole world.

We stayed in the hospital for 2 days (that's 2 less than usually c-section patients) and left ON Thanksgiving Day 2010. All would have been golden, if the flu hadn't passed on to everyone else in the house (my mom included).   What a pukefest that was.

 Anyway, now it's 12 months later and she is so big!  She can walk, crawl, wave bye-bye, shake her head yes and no.  She can also say Hi, Bye-Bye, Mama, Dada, and Ba-ba.  I couldn't be prouder of her.

Here are her monthly pics--
1 month old


2 months old


3 months old


4 months old


5 months old


6 months old


7 months old


8 months old


9 months old


10 months old


11 months old


12 months old!!!

Birthday Party Post

Saturday we had a family birthday party for the triplets.  Fun was had and cake was eaten. Here is a pic of the three of them and me ON their actual birthday.

Here are a few of the pics from their party.

Anna's Cake

Ayva's Cake

Justin's Cake

Ayva, Justin and Anna

Anna getting sung to

Ayva getting sung to

Justin getting sung to

Justin blowing out his candles. (He's the only one who could do it himself)

Anna loves cake. :)

Justin loves sugar fondant

Ayva getting a small taste of cake

Ayva with all of her lovies she got

Anna and her new Trampoline!!

AND tomorrow is Camryn's birthday!!! I can't believe she will be ONE tomorrow....I shall post about it tomorrow!! :)

Oy....Tomorrow I will have Three 4 year olds....

I seriously feel like they should NOT be 4 yet, but at the same time I'm thinking, man....each year older they get I age by 10.  It's been a really rough 4 years, full of ups and downs (mostly downs).  We've struggled with them being born early, having NEC and Strep B infections in the NICU.  Then the girls w/ their brain damage, and then the biggie- Infantile Spasms.  Then the Cerebral Palsy diagnoses....Now Ayva is still struggling with seizures still, and both the girls are still so behind developmentally.  It has been rough to see the life you imagined for your kids (and yourself) day by day slipping away and being replaced with one you never dreamed you would have to cope with.  Now, dance classes, going to the park, and even going to (a regular) school has been replaced with doctor appointments, therapies, and special needs schools.

I've also become to hate some of the things I thought weren't so bad before-- like the saying "God only gives you what you can handle."  Just because I can handle this (I really can't) doesn't mean I want to, you know?  I'd rather be weak and not have to watch my children suffer on a daily basis.

I'm also a little shocked about my "friends".  I thought I had some good friends who really were there for me.  As soon as the triplets were born, a few (almost instantly) distanced themselves.  I guess I can understand that it might be overwhelming for someone who doesn't/didn't have any kids at the time to be a little apprehensive at the time--but I stick to the saying "A true friend walks in when the rest of the world walks out."  and I really feel like a few of my "friends" walked out the day the triplets were born.  Which is sad.

Anyway, enough of my sad over-dramatic ramblings......Tomorrow is the day- B-Day.  Hopefully I will have time to post a birthday post, but for now I will post a few pics of the trio's first few years!

1 month old- still in the NICU (Anna, Justin, Ayva)


The car ride home from the hospital (Ayva, Justin, Anna)


2 months old (Anna, Ayva, Justin)


3 months old (Justin, Anna, Ayva)


4 months old (Ayva, Justin, Anna)


5 months old (Anna, Justin, Ayva)


6 months old (Anna, Justin, Ayva)


7 months old
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8 months old
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9 months old (pink-Ayva, Justin, yellow-Anna)


10 months old  (Ayva, Justin, Anna)


11 months old (Ayva, Anna, Justin)


1 year old


1 1/2 years (Anna, Ayva, Justin)  I hate this picture because it shows how awful Ayva feels on the awful drugs for IS :(


2 years (Anna, Avya, Justin)


2 1/2 years (Anna, Ayva, Justin)


3 years (Anna, Ayva, Justin)


3 1/2 years (Anna, Ayva, Justin)

Nothing much going on

Our lives become pretty routine here at the Fields house when we don't have anything special going on.  The girls go to school, Justin and Camryn stay home with me and we either go grocery shopping or stay home and get some house chores done.  REPEAT.  But, November is proven to always be a super busy month.  First, there is my birthday (yesterday), then the Trio's birthday is on the 15th--I can't believe they are going to be 4 this year!!! and then Camryn's is on the 23rd and I REALLY can't believe she is going to be one! THEN, it's Thanksgiving the day after Cam's b-day (and also Big Justin's Mom's B-day).  Then there is Camryn's party on the 26th and don't forget Black Friday(I really want to go shopping this year!)  Usually I don't go shopping on BF, but I guess now that I'm old...(27) I feel it's necessary to get some holiday shopping done on this day.  It just sounds fun!  I want to (if we have the money to) get most of the kids presents and our parents presents done early.  I HATE procrastinating.  I want them bought and wrapped so I can admire them under our tree (which I would put up before Thanksgiving if I had a say in it......or if I could get it out of the garage by myself).

Anyone have any suggestions on BF shopping?  What stores to hit early?

And you all know I don't post anything w/o a picture, so here is a few of Justin from the other day. Hopefully I can get the kiddos to cooperate today and get the trio's 4 year pictures!  Then this weekend, I have a photo shoot with the beautiful Ms. Quinn for her 6 month pictures and then I'm hoping to get Camryn's cake smash 1 year pictures! I have to look up a milk/soy free cake recipe first :(

Here's Justin: